Wish I could post every where at the same time. I gained two pounds since last update from drinking and eating. Like forbidden foods. Like fast food. Then I remembered my last option .. my last two days have been no eat. One meal maybe six saltines... today I ate chicken. Purge. Lost a pound. Two excedrin and three exlax. Eat small potatoe. Purge. Tske pills get high.. ugh haven't done this in forever fucked up. ... thinking about mini wine bottle. Yeah more like sleep.